Finally decided to write something here...

For the past month or so.....i have been drowning in my work.  I don't even have time to breathe...so, i am doing pretty well to be typing a weblog right now i guess...

Exams start next week...and i already had about 5 million mocks...are they trying to kill me before my exams??hm.....I can't wait to get over my exams but yet i don't want them to get nearer and nearer.  

Life has been a hell of a complication.  Why can't I always determine what i like?? I hate decisions...All those aniticipations really led me to nothing as I left before it got to me.  I do pointless things...don't I? Well...I guess it could be I get frustrated when I don't get what I want....and I will never get over it until I do actually get it. 

For the past three weeks...everytime I have talkd to my mum...tears always appear....I really thought that you said that i should relax after my exams...so i shouldnt work and haagen dazs..and i did fall for it....but now...my prediction has become true...as i guess i don't really have holidays...All my friends plan where to go, what to learn etc.  And there is me, sat there, wanting to go somewhere with them, but never allow to and I always happen to make some ridiculous excuse.  Why can't i own my own summer holidays?